Upon arrival at the
hospital forms were filled, documents signed, tests done and then up
to the ward in preparation for surgery which was due for that same
evening. There was virtually no
time to think, let alone panic, and I entered the whole process
feeling somewhat calm and relaxed in a philosophical sort of way. I
mean, the situation was what it was, without this transplant my
chances of a full recovery were far worse than they were with it. I
trusted the doctors and the hospital implicitly, so I just submitted
myself to their care and quite happily drifted off into la la land
under anaesthetic leaving all my other cares behind.
I do remember waking up
after surgery. First thing I saw was Vivien’s face and it wasn’t
surrounded with a halo and she wasn’t wearing white, thus
indicating I was still alive and on planet earth. So that’s good
then! Second thing I felt was
slightly more than the weeniest tadge of discomfort when I tried to
move. Apparently some of the medical team had taken advantage of my
anaesthetized state and fastened me to the bed by tubes attaching
themselves to lots of different bags they’d thoughtfully decorated
my bed with. Third thing I thought was
‘how the hell do I go to the loo? Vivien obviously read my turmoil
and pointed to the tubes leading to the catheter and poo-bag hanging
decoration like off the end of the bed. Total bliss, I had my
best friend looking after me, I could pee and poo in bed without
getting up and I was being fed through tubes. Surely it doesn’t get
any better than that.
Feeling quite content
with my new life (apart from the weeniest tadge of discomfort when I
tried to move) I drifted off into la la land again as the latest
instalment of pain killer found its way into my blood stream from one
of the many drips dispelling multifarious medications through the
plethora of tubes attaching themselves to various parts of my body
through a system of ‘spaghetti junction’ like complexity. And that was that for a
few days, as unbeknown to me in la la land, this transplant failed
after 36 hours (a record I believe), leaving the surgeons with no
option other than to put me on life support while they desperately
searched for a new liver.
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